I can see you getting over me.
I’ve been off meds for weeks now. All I wanted was to feel drug free for the first time in so long.
I never really thought they did anything; those stupid white pills I shoved into my mouth everyday. I always thought it was me who was coping, not some chemical inside me.
But I guess I was wrong. I’m worse now than ever.
Yet I don’t want to go back to taking some drug to make it better.
I feel myself losing people, I see them starting again to hate me.
Maybe I’m just meant to be this way. Maybe I’m better alone.
I shouldn’t do this to you. You don’t deserve this.
I’m not worthy of you.
February 4, 2012 at 10:24 am
I have been there and have recently wanted to stop the meds again. Thank you for your honesty and for reminding me what they are good for. You are so worthy! It is just an imbalance making you think that way. I hope you are still getting help despite being off the meds. I guarantee there are people who care and want to help you but you just need to let them.
I hope you feel better soon and can get some help. I feel for you. You are not alone. Big hugs.